I had neglected this blog for quite some time to come.I have thought of changing this blogskin as IE does not support it but I threw it away as this is so far the most unique blogskin I came across on the internet and I think it makes my blog special.Today's soccer was fun and I had training and even had two matches.They were a boost to my confidence although it was pretty hard on my body.If you were to think how is it that the way I write my blog is so bumpy and my events do not flow ,that is because I write whatever that comes into my mind first and in my opinion,that is the true way of blogging.I have to admit I don't always write everything I do and experienced in my blog as I am afraid others my read it and judge me.In other words,there is no privacy on the internet.However after thinking over,I find that this sorts of discredits my blog's existance.After all ,if it does not function like a diary where genuine thoughts are poured then there is no reason for it to exist.And that goes on from now.Of course another reason why I do not blog wholeheartedly is that I know that no one accept me will read it as I have little friends .But then I want this blog to last,so that when I have aged ,I am able to read it and understand what I was before.People change regulary over the times but this a part of me that I want to preserve.I think this reason overrides all doubts I have.And so if all this data is lost,part of me exist,but I will remember subconsciously.I have to say that I have been doing many things over the holidays.I have been reading books about History of UFO(s),Crop circles,The egg,flower of life,the hindu sri yantra mandala ,kirlian photography even the tibetan"Om mani padme hum" and many more to come and many which I have not done and hope to do so .I believe this is my calling as I really don't have interest in anything.Games are really short lived satisfactions.Soccer and creativesquare(business venture) I believe are keys to boosting my confidence in whatever I face in life.When I indulge in them,I feel as if I am bringing myself to a new level.After all ,that all that gets in my way are doubts,fear and lack of confidence.I surprise myself that I have written all this,after all,I was spurred to blog after listening to this song Passing by-Ulrich Schnauss,its beautiful.And it all started through listening to this song.
