Looking Past the Present

2007-05-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

Its going to be a very busy day tomorow and week after ! I will be having my Biophysics quiz and Emaths 3 quiz on mon and tue respectively.I have yet to complete chinese assignment for my cds.Thats not all,I am then greeted by a yet-to-be-completed Apel presentation and research in tue and medical eletronics research report on thurs.Wow I am really in a tight situation,and the fact that I wasted 1h looking for a damm medical book to copy.At least I managed to get it done and I made friends with the librarians !!

2007-05-17T21:51:00.000+08:00

I have not update this blog for quite some time.Hopefully,I will fare better next month.Today,while relaxing in the school library I was reorganising my thoughts after a chaotic week.I was decided to write all the problems that I faced in poly life.Some which have lasted from secondary even from primary till now.Once I was done,I started analysing how to counter those challenges.It was a rather common self-help action that every person who wants to improve his or her life would do.It was then I had this realisation.I would't not call it a deep realisation that those zen masters acheive during meditation.In fact it is simple,and almost common sense.But I am sure most people don't realise it and of course I am one of this people.However,what makes it so special is that it simply sums up all problems we face in our world and derives a single answer to it.That is,the problems that we all face in our world,fears..may it be of failure,a certain people or a particular situation that we strongly dislike or do not want to happen, of what others think and say about
one,stress from coursework,unsatisfactory results,peer pressure,the future,the past,low self-esteem and lack of confidence which in turns haunts us continuously,always arises with every thought we make.This destroys the day,which forms a week,a month,a year and eventually our life.The problem is each time we experience this ,our mindset of life becomes bleak,and we in turn act out the actions which follows the orders of our mind.In fact ,reality is always different from what we think it is.Prior to the biology of human,the human mind has a an almost infinite capacity to think and analsye situations,however,universal laws has it is ironically that it is still unable to comprehend what it is not built to understand.This statement seems to contradict the previous point I have made.If the human perspective of reality always differ from reality ,then why bad things always happen as we thought it would? How come Murphy's Law exists.This rather simple.Reality always happen the way it always is,like a cycle.It is always running whether you like it or not ,whatever happens to you,it will keep on running the same way like before,it is then our ACTIONS.. stemmed from our negative mind that act as a cataylst to TURN reality against us.In short,we are the reasons for our own failures.However this is not main realisation that I have made.The main realisation is that no matter what happens to us and others.Events that occur to all individuals that made some larger then others.Failures and success had become secondary.Eventually,when you succeed ,you will only try to succeed furthur,and when you have failed,you would try make a comeback and succeed.All this are like a race.When the whistle blows ,all of them dash for the finishing line.There will be one or two to make it to the line first while others follow closely behind and the slower ones reach after quite some time.But eventually ,all of them reaches.It was just a matter of time.Eventually,everyone will achieve what they want,it was only a matter of how long they each will take.Of course many of us have different aims in life,you can't compare either as everyone ideal of succeeding is different.Some might be to amass knowledge and experience while others might differ.But then,we are all restricted by one thing ,and that makes us all equal,no matter how talented we are.That is Time.So true success in life is reaching what your heart deems success in the quickest time possible.In my opinion,this is possible if you live your life inside out and not other way round.You live and manipulate your life from urges residing in you and make sure you are genuinly happy it.Many people let the outside world manipulate and change them inside and they live with a split personality.They think they are happy and Yes they are.But their deprived personality in them is constantly ignored and will arise some time in the future only to be repressed again.When you are genuinly happy from the inside,you feel as if that you are living your purpose,of why you you are actually HERE .After all ,if we are all are truely perfect,we would't be here at all.

2007-04-25T20:43:00.000+08:00

Looks like I chose the right CDS after all .Will work to rediscover my roots from some time to come.

2007-04-20T00:53:00.001+08:00

I had neglected this blog for quite some time to come.I have thought of changing this blogskin as IE does not support it but I threw it away as this is so far the most unique blogskin I came across on the internet and I think it makes my blog special.Today's soccer was fun and I had training and even had two matches.They were a boost to my confidence although it was pretty hard on my body.If you were to think how is it that the way I write my blog is so bumpy and my events do not flow ,that is because I write whatever that comes into my mind first and in my opinion,that is the true way of blogging.I have to admit I don't always write everything I do and experienced in my blog as I am afraid others my read it and judge me.In other words,there is no privacy on the internet.However after thinking over,I find that this sorts of discredits my blog's existance.After all ,if it does not function like a diary where genuine thoughts are poured then there is no reason for it to exist.And that goes on from now.Of course another reason why I do not blog wholeheartedly is that I know that no one accept me will read it as I have little friends .But then I want this blog to last,so that when I have aged ,I am able to read it and understand what I was before.People change regulary over the times but this a part of me that I want to preserve.I think this reason overrides all doubts I have.And so if all this data is lost,part of me exist,but I will remember subconsciously.I have to say that I have been doing many things over the holidays.I have been reading books about History of UFO(s),Crop circles,The egg,flower of life,the hindu sri yantra mandala ,kirlian photography even the tibetan"Om mani padme hum" and many more to come and many which I have not done and hope to do so .I believe this is my calling as I really don't have interest in anything.Games are really short lived satisfactions.Soccer and creativesquare(business venture) I believe are keys to boosting my confidence in whatever I face in life.When I indulge in them,I feel as if I am bringing myself to a new level.After all ,that all that gets in my way are doubts,fear and lack of confidence.I surprise myself that I have written all this,after all,I was spurred to blog after listening to this song Passing by-Ulrich Schnauss,its beautiful.And it all started through listening to this song.

2007-04-07T01:16:00.000+08:00

Just found out that IE does not display my blog content and I am not doing anything about it because it took me quite some to find this skin and I think its unique.Recently been hit by msn virus..suffered for 3 days and finally found the cure on SgForums.The key to disabling it turn out to be delelting a file calle rdihost.dll .I do not know whether it works the same for the rest.I have been racking my brains for NDP designs recently for the past few days.I should say my right brain is finally getting the ultilization and recongition it needs.And I am getting better !Just did 3 just now.Soccer was fun.
And the research shall begin soon...

2007-04-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

Today after stumbling across some of my former classmates friendster have discovered them they have all matured and began to look like young adults.They have chose adifferent paths are progressing.Then,it hit me... I felt this strong and overpowering feeling,ancient yet familar.Almost as if it was written into our very DNA ever since our ancestors set foot upon earth.The feeling ican't be described,it gives me sudden heightened state of awareness,a sudden realisation as if a passage of time has passed and the significance it really plays in our lives and how it shapes it .This is followed by a sudden urge to examine and ponder over my own.An unusual calming effect is acheived from this .What I have mentioned in the above sounds incredulous but its true and every fiber of my being tells me that this kind of feeling don't come by easily.One of the amazing chemical reactions produced by the deep recessess of the brain perharps.

Ok.Now it time to do the NDP designs.

2007-03-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

I always wonded why isn't there a music for all occasions.A rousing one for victory or anger ,a sad one for failure or loss, a chilling one for fear and a relaxing one for peace .Our lives lack definition of the atmosphere.It is then I understood that our moods at anytime are determined by our thoughts and utimately affecting the outcome and consequences.Our thoughts also shape our perceptions and ideas which determine our reactions and feelings in different events and situations.It could be briefly summed up into this phrases"If I think it is ,therefore it is","Even if there is no God,I can make God".

2007-03-23T01:11:00.000+08:00

Today has been an eventful day.Went to nyp to sign a second contract and then in the evening its the S-league again.

2007-03-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

Its been quite some time now since I last updated this blog.Uncountable events has already began to unfold and I cannot remember all of them.So before even starting,I decided to change its template to a fresher one!Its the two months holidays now.Went to work as a flier distributor for 3 days for a property agent.It was very tough.In fact ,it was so tough that I was surprised i made it through.See how money can influence the mind !Dad went to US to attend the seafood exhibitions.Hopefully,it be a fruitful one.He be landing at 12 tonight.That be great as I have alot of questions to consult him regarding creativesquare ventures.Creativesquare is at least 4-5months old till date.I should say we been pretty hardworking.Upcoming ventures are NDP events and a current one with NYP.But they were one of the most diffcult and uncooperative customers we encountered,in fact,our first customers not to mention a particulary childish one.
However as I reorganised my thoughts now.I concluded that this encounters are common in the business world.Though I am convinced I am now business inclined.It never hurts to learn outside your comfy circle.
Things I learnt.
Never allow emotions take over your head.They are unnessary and this measure will be critical in events when your supplier,client including yourself get frustrated.
Allows make the details of the contract clear to your client.As detailed as possble ,word for word if possible.We paid DEARLY for this today.
Lastly mutual trust between clients and us is essential.We clearly lacked this today.Of course it is our first meeting,so it can't be helped.
Luckily for us,we had a good relationship with out supplier.Thats our plus point !
Recently bought a book from a bookfair form bras brasah ,no time to read hahas.
Had a new teammate in creativesquare from which I learnt that had suffered depression before.So joining creativesquare would I hope boost his confidence
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Recently came across a website featuring enistein quotes.Very intriguing and true.Wish I understood what he was thinking.

2007-03-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

Wow.Alot have happened recently.The main exams came and passed eventfully.My fever came and passed.Speaking of it makes me scared.It was sheer hell trying to cramp a biochemistry informations into my head while suffering form the fatigue,dizziness and headache form the fever.Such thing should never happen again.
My grandfather also paid us a visit and he gave me some of his old singapre dollars as he learnt I was into collecting them.Now comes two months of bliss and here I am brooding on the most fruitful way to spend them hahas.

2007-01-25T21:02:00.000+08:00

Been flooded with assignments,projects,quizs,lab tests and studying objectives recently and the mother of them all, the main examinations.I have a very good reason for not blogging haha.Actually I do still have time do play CS and listen to songs which is incredible.

2007-01-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

2007-01-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

Time flies ..tomorrow I will be starting school.School life back again.Anyway,today something happened and I made a realisation as I thought it over.I guess this is how people just suddenly think it over,straighten out their thoughts and grow up inside.When that happens you just happen to be more aware and ''see more things''.
Recently got an interest on plants.Well a website caused that.(previous post).Anway I noted that I should make it a point to tend the plants often because of the calm and relaxation it gives.Recently just chose my new CDs and put basic financial accounting as first choice.Most likely I will get in and hopefully it I will be applying it soon on a business venture or other thing else.Oh ya.While browsing through the net I just this thought.Would't it be good if singapore has auroras in the skies.I am sure everyone would stop work and just admire.Perhaps it will awake their latent awareness on how beautiful the world is.Still need to slog out some time to read my library book.

2007-01-01T02:29:00.000+08:00

Hail the new year ! Well it has been a eventful day today.Went to play table tennis with jiahao and firdaus in the noon.Met two peddlers from china there and spared with them a number of times and I could feel that skills has been sharpened considerably.Then when to an uncle's house to celebrate his birthday and at the same time the countdown.Thats it.

2006-12-29T00:17:00.000+08:00

Check this website out ..interesting .Now reading a book by Amir Aczel called Probability: why there must be intelligent life in the universe.

2006-12-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

Today is was eventful day hahas.
External interaction is essential in forming a proverb or mindset.

2006-12-22T08:51:00.000+08:00

Played table tennis after quite some time haha .Went to a gardens exhibit at suntec recently and took a few pictures wih my camera phone.Beautiful works of art and nature by people around the world.

2006-12-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

Today has been a fun day .When back to school library for some stuff.Then played pool and LAN at safra.Never played so much at one go before haha.

2006-12-16T00:45:00.000+08:00

Well..the term test is ending soon .Tomorow will be my last paper OTC medication ...should be manageable .Two weeks of holiday coming up next ..great.Three weeks would have sound more like a holiday though.

Organisation is very important though one tends to neglect it at times,it may prove very critical to the outcomes often.
And I have to learn this the hard way.

2006-12-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

A picture of a beach I took on a island a month or two back during a cruise trip.I thought that it was rather unique (the chair in the middle).I came across it while clearing my cache and was surprised especially as I took this picture in a hurry while leaving on a tram.So to emphasis more on its centre of uniqueness ..I decided to edit it for a better view on its meaning.

2006-12-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

Term test approaching soon hahas

2006-11-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

Did not update for some to come haha,went to play soccer finally after what seems like eternity.Feeling refreshed and contented a strenous workout with my soccer friends and a unexpected match.Hilarious game (: Both legs are still feeling worn out..expected .Went to a parent friend house today.Fifaed like to our hearts content yeaa...first the real game then the virtual one.

The mind is one of the most powerful thing on earth.Imagination has no boundaries.
So there !

2006-11-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

We should pursue our dreams while we can...or we live to regret.

2006-11-19T23:18:00.000+08:00

Vivo City hahas.Great new funky shops and entertaiments.I liked the weird wormy structure best.The architect must be crazy guy lol.

Viva Vivo

Wormy structure

Golden village cineplex

Took this shortly after entering vivo as he was prancing all over the place.
Funny guy.

2006-11-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

Success is not amounted to how much you have become but how much you have changed

-Unknown

2006-11-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

There as an vast infinite information out there in the universe waiting for me.Yet I am restricted to learn all that load of junk in school tomorrow in this badly tailored education system.Because of this I never felt the pride of being one in the nation except during national day perhaps.I guess this is an disadvantage of being a singaporean.Yea dynamic learning hub.

2006-11-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

A rainy afternoon at TP library.

2006-11-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

Boredom is fatal to one at times.

Anyway,we should not vent our anger or failures at animals.That will only make losers out of us.Moreover,its hari raya...lol

2006-11-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

Faith and belief are strong..really strong.They have brought people through crisis and turmoil.But even they have limits.When the answers never came.And all soon would be lost.

2006-11-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

The weekends are over in a flash..and school is starting again.Tons of leatures tutorials and stuff.I doubt I am going to have enough time to practise photoshop.I be screwed by then.The listlessness is getting the better of me.Everyday is school-leatures-tutorials-study-work-weekends-library-computer-lan-school....

And it goes on and on.If this is life.Then I be better of dead.After all it always seems the more appealing choice all long even though thinking of death is wrong.What's wrong ?

2006-11-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

Today s-league was interesting ..more drama then play lol..Anyway designed a banner for the first time ever for a club called Ycx for their upcoming bazaar using Adobe Photoshop.Gee.(:

2006-10-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

Ah...my saturday just had to end like that.Went as a event helper to the grooming workshop.Not bad,learnt quite a few stuff.Anyway next time if I want to go for a course ,I would go as a usher because helping out in logistics or registration is pointless because you be outside all the time.Crap

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And now for the lively ones !!

Haha although today is one hell of a boring day...and I am practically pissed that I spent my whole weekend on a event although it wasn't entirely a waste of time.
Well ..some rash people who act or critise without thinking made by day today ...haha
Another thing , my bus broke down today !!! I was already late and the bus had to break down in the middle of the road....I was sighing over and over again....Murphy's Law ....murphy's law... So I ended up running a 500m race towards white sands (:
And finally another heard of a japanese method of folding T-shirts in 3secs ??? Its called the Sekunden Method.Well I watched this video online and it took me 10 min to master it . My mum has a competitor now ..only better hahaha

2006-10-25T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hari raya is over.....now I am facing with different kinds of odd subjects like biochemistry and biofundamentals.......Things get harder this sem.Anyway,I finally fell ill.Got headache ,sore throat and was down with bad flu.It was a timely one today (:

2006-10-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

Time sure flies ...I am going to start school tomorow.Man ....wished I enjoyed my holidays more....oh well.

2006-10-22T00:51:00.000+08:00

When you are inspired by some great purpose,some
extraordinary project,all of your thoughts break their
bonds: your mind trancends limitations , your
consciousness expands in every direction and you will find
yourself in a new ,great and wonderful world.Dormant
forces,faculties and talents become alive and you discover
yourself to be a greater person than you ever dreamed
yourself to be.
- Pantanjali

This makes sense !!

2006-10-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

Time sure flies ..it been a week and four days since I updated my blog.Reason being ? Well my laptop sort of broke down ..my hard disk failed on me.The reason is simple ...not because of virus or spyware or trojans whatever which are the usual causes of hardisk failure.Rather a stupid mistake .Okay I would call it an unexpected one due to inexperience.Can't believe this sort of stuff actually happened to me ..I meant I am no tech geek but I am no beginner either and this sort of stuff is really embarrassing.Well we all learnt form mistakes.What actually happened was that one afternoon I just decided to go to asus.com to search for updates.I found many driver updates and I particularly singled out one which updates my ATI graphic driver.I was so bend on updating that I just downloaded it .Yea.And then I restarted my laptop.Big mistake.The driver was a bad one.It was created before I bought my laptop which means it was an older version of graphic update .Worst...it was UNCOMPATIBLE with my current laptop being an older version.As the bad driver replaces my newer one...it sorts of delete my good driver .and it itself does not work ! And so behold : I have no graphic driver ! The images on screen later on were disturbing .
Anyway I was extremely shocked .I kept muttering please don't crash now.But it did. The horrifying truth was slowly setting in.I had lost GIGABYTES and GIGABYTES of data .All my mp3 songs ...videos that I decoded my myself .....programs that took me ages to find..was gone.I was distraught and was halfway insane .I tried retrieve my data in safe mode but in vain.For the next hour I actually had difficulty breathing .Yep that crazy.I then walked to the kitchen and told my mum what happened .She just sighed and said this is what happens when I meddle too much.Then I told her that my grief it was equal to losing a child .She said I was crazy.And I told her NO I am serious.Well it seems like I was in hell till my father brought my laptop to his office and my saviour (his colleague who was the computer god) managed to run a special program and saved my data into a server.If I was girl I could have cried .All I could express was endless gratitute.It took two trips down do the asus service center to change a hard disk and another two more days to transfer my data and three more days to get the wireless up and running and one more day to install back all my programs.
Then when it is done.I sat back and reflected.For the pass five to six days I could't sleep or eat well and I was always in a listless mood. Come to think of it now..I thought I was insane.The truth is ..I have spent too much time on my laptop ..doing other stuff to rather then to indulge in other more meaningful things .I stayed in my room most of the day.It was like the world to me..and so when in crashed ..so did my world .I am now spending most of time being outside with friends or at libraries reading enjoying and learning from everyday events.As I thought of it now...his calamity was actually a blessing in disguise .I was so controlled by my computer that I forgotten about living..that it had so much power to affect my emotions.
Anyway all is over and school is starting is starting the day after tomorow ..today's amazing races was quite fun. What a rush of exchangable events .And a life lesson learnt ..........the hard way (:

2006-10-10T14:13:00.000+08:00

Inspiration is like a volcanic eruption .It strikes anytime and anybody.The impacts are always heavy and changing like how the lava flows and burn anything in its way plants,animals ,solid rocks ..in other words a major change in landscape.It is however short lived and will soon cease completely like how the molten lava cools and harden to form hard surfaces and all has halted ,leaving only the results for all to see.
This is what struck me last night.

2006-10-09T00:30:00.000+08:00

Waha new template ...When I first discovered this template I was like woah not bad .Plus my previous one made my blog look like a war blog (:

2006-10-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

I have received news that one of my cousin had lupus and was hospitalised.I did not know what was the disease about.A quick check on wikipedia shocked me.You can find out more about it here .If I am not wrong she must at least 23 by now at had just returned to singapore after graduating from Unviversity of melbourne with 1st honours.However, the great future that lays ahead has been bleaken by this disease as her job prospect would inevitably be afffected.I was stunned ..not by her tragedy but by the realisation of how life can be so unpredictable and cruel.And the fact that she was VEGETARIAN ever since she was born hit me even harder.She was supposed to be a very healthy person and seldom fall ill.I was like how on earth she got that ? Then I learnt from my parents that the disease was in fact INHEREDITARY.Ok inhereditary.My mind drited back on her parents as well as my relatives medical status over the years.No one I thought had this disease....and I confirmed with my parents that no one actually had this disease at all..so how can it be passed down? My father suggested that it must had been from some great grand uncle or aunty or somehing and even if its true ..her chances of her getting this disease should be at least o.1% ....and the fact she was a healthy vegetarian all long.I was dumbfounded.

LIfe is so unpredictable and cruel at times ....I have learnt from this living examples.I can't imagine her reaction now.

2006-10-08T13:40:00.000+08:00

Weee.. the haze is gone at last.Although the PSI meter is always there ...at least I can smell nature now ..not sulphur dioxide.A few days back while the haze is still eminent ....and we all inhale loads of smoke and dust with every breath...it always makes me irritated .. What is indonesia doing ? ...The ministers say they can't help it.I don't stomach any of that.U must be eating too much and its bedtime always.All the stuff about the poor civilians not being able to afford to hire woodcutters and just deciding to burn everything so that they can have space to grow crops.From what I think, I think they could just switch lines .You are guys are polluting the atmosphere with your selfish antics.Oops ...I forgotten ..cutting trees are your only skills ..in that case,you should just burn yourself as well (= Oh yeah..because of your selfish actions .....you have
dragged your country into the crisis as well.Children are unable to go to schools....traffic is severly affected ..all works are halted and the streets are to unhealthy to be walked.The econonmy spirals down. You guys think you are going benefit overall ?? Of course everyone there have this mindset '' I will do my utmost to benefit myself regardless of what I do and whether it will affect the rest.If I do cock up ,I will do anything to save myself even if I manage to drag everyone into the crisis with me'' This is the main reason why the people will never acheive anything.Golly I hope we don't become like you.Good luck I hope all goes well for you...just don't drag us with you yer know...If all is lost ..take out yer mats and start praying !!

2006-10-07T18:40:00.000+08:00

Man I can't go out today because of the damm haze ...freak ..when I checked the PSI this mornig it was like 130 and the weather looked horrid and now....(lookin outside thw window) it must be at least 150 !! (gasp) . I am getting slight flu now because of the dust .

2006-10-04T13:54:00.000+08:00

Well today's weather is really good ,sunny and windy.And when did I start taking notice of the weather ? Something is wrong ..omg......

2006-10-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

Its been ages since I played soccer in a team with friends and stuff.Too bad I have grown smarter.

2006-10-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

Well what have we got here ? Today is a normal day.My grandmother came to my house to stay...she would be staying for a few weeks.Great more company.(They say people are like libraries there is much to learn from them...true enough).And I would't say she is a very boring person nor a very interesting one .Just that , there would be a slight change in my home cuisine haha....
Did not went out today because I was stuck to the laptop as my parents always said.
Surfed the net and played dota(I am getting sick of it and I don't believe it !).So I decided to brush up my command prompt skills .So went to search for a guide and spent some time and hey presto ! (=
Tomorow I am looking for a new job because the old one is almost full house .New job ,new experiences ,new pay (er..) ....maybe.
Hope to master my cantonese soon ...so I can speak to my relatives with ease.

Things I hope to learn as I grow up.
Learn japanese .( I don't know why ..but people usually go there when working)
Learn jeet kune do.

OF course that be l a t er on . . . . .

Things that never bores me always..blogging

Everyday is a new day

2006-09-30T02:36:00.000+08:00

Yep ..what canI say about to day events.Well went with jiahao early morning in the morning to eunos just to hand our punch cards to the agent so that our salary could be banked into our accounts.Then we bought a yonex badminton net ..we thought it was worth dammit because it was yonex and it would't stay upright when we tried to tie it.Hope we were just inexperienced .Then we played badminton ..exhausting man ..I stilled played the day before.Then ,went for some meeting and man its so b o r i n g b o r i n g b o r i n g b o r i n g b o r i n g b o r i n g.

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And now for the lively ones !! SUCCESS ...After searching for more than a month and after many fake successess that never cease to disappoint me ..I have found the a free video converter that converts flv video code to other video codecs...finally......I can play all my beloved videos in big CLEAR screens :DDDDDDDD with good sound quality too.PLUS - today I learnt alot on video quality editing hahah all self -taught through trial and error - the best way to learn.Nite.

2006-09-29T01:36:00.001+08:00

Haha ..been dotaing all night .Going to collect my pay on 8th october soon woohoo !!!
Besides dotaing ,the only been doing is listening to this song called Parody by Utada Hikaru.Its a rare song by her and is seldom publicised I don't know.(Of course she sung it in Japanese =D)

Parody

Late night broadcast
The TV looks at me with it's blue eyes
No matter how often I change the channel
I can't escape that gaze

No matter how many time I look in the fridge
Its the same answer , an answer I am used to hearing
The timelimit is about up
I need more time , let me be
Oh no , this is a parody

But to me , it's my life story
Without waiting for me , the clock
Pretends not to know anything
I know,it's a common story
Not being some copy of someone else
I'II will write the rest of it from now

Facing the same way with everyone else
It's the freeway
It's just a coincidence
When the road split , it was sudden

Hurry me to the seventh floor , please
The elevator is unusually small
But no one else is here , so I feel safe
Set me free from ''thoughfulness''

Oh no , everything's a parody
But to everyone , it's a true story
Without putting any strength into it
You pretend that you don't need anything
I know a couple that look just like us
But they do nothing but argue
Without putting much pirority on it
I'II will read the rest of it from now

Oh no , this is probably a parody
I 'm sure for someone , it's a fake story
I can't wear any shoes but my own
That's alright since , I can walk like that
I know, it's a common story
But to me , it's a real story
Without waiting for the rest of it
I'II go to see you from now

2006-09-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

Woot..time really flies .Tomorow I em going back to work again haha.Went we parents to east coast to eat teochew food ..ate alot.Then ate NY cheese cake at Pie Shop.I don't usually write personel entries because I don't like that but somehow I got nothing to write today.Why because I been dota-ing all day .So my mind is blank.

2006-09-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

*Yawn* What time is it? Dammm should be sleeping by now.Blogging ?wtf? Anyway today when to a friend house to get dota software and got it played it ...fun man.Youth is precious man...we should cherish ourselves when we are at our peak ,when we look the best,perform the best,speak the best,sing the best as well as our charms and of course health.
If people say life is precious, I say youth is equally precious.
Anyway some words of wisdom I found profound and practical from a book.

We squander Health
In search of Wealth;
We Toil,we Sweat,we Save
Then we squander our Wealth
In search of Health
Any only find the Grave

- Unknown.

Amazing .

2006-09-21T13:57:00.000+08:00

My very own home cinema - Creative stereo speakers, Asus M9V laptop with Asus DVD software (:

2006-09-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

Well I have temoparily stopped working for this week because the company failed to received stocks on time and thus work is delayed ....sianz(as they claimed who knows)
Anyway got to make full use of this hoilday no matter what.I MUST.

2006-09-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

Its been quite some time now since the last time I updated this blog.Well I got a job finally working as so called factory-packer-but-really-packing-cellphone-memory-chips-all- the- time .12 hours a day is mentally exhausting....This is my first job haha..finally experienced the realities of working life...I now understand what my parents faced.Just got to endure.Yep.Hopefully I earn back what I have paid for the **** membership.A worthy self investmen&...provided I focus on my objective all the time.(=
Recently got enlightened on my parents words after admiting my initiative to go for the membership.Should have consulted them first anyway.Little did I know they were victims of what I would call marketing within marketings !Known as ****** marketing in the past and mu***-**** marketing or mul**-level marketin* now.I would not go into details.Anyway one can learn anyting ...but not experience.

2006-09-14T10:28:00.000+08:00

Yea just got my exam results.All I can say is no failures wahaha....aka....no sub paper..aka...able to enjoy the rest of my holiday without stress.Come on its just the first year and I am a bad adaptor to anything..ok enough pass can .Anyway once a new semester arrives I will renew my studying technique ...oh and I will pay full attention in all leatures....oh and I will always go home and revise my work after lessons.Deal.

This are also my other SECONDARY commandments to do :
Master micrsoft excel (yep this is critical but I swear I did't touch this to now)
Adobe photoshop free hand

All in all the storm has passed,it has made me rugged and tougher person in poly life and most importantly more independent.(I was used to spoon feeding)

2006-09-13T18:04:00.000+08:00

Man I can't log in to tp website to check my results because its online services is 3-5pm only ...what the hell ...stupid tp making me worried for nothing.Inefficient learning hub...oh and ran by lazy people.Yea great so tonight I am not going to sleep well.F

2006-09-13T02:09:00.000+08:00

Phew.... back from chalet (wink)....barbecued,ate,fifaed,watched movies,chatted...and bonded.Yea bonded.Chalet was pretty fun ...it opened me to various colourful personalities of my poly friends.Worth it ...hahas.Some of them are great guitar players. Chalets are always fun....if you learn to appreciate the accompany and the warmth it brings (:

2006-09-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

AGGHHhhhhrrrr...!!!!!! Youtubbbbbbbe !!!!!!!!!

2006-09-10T21:33:00.000+08:00

Back from the cruise hoilday at last ! What an experience ....Superstar Virgo ..isn't she a beauty ? :)

2006-09-10T12:53:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken from the payar lebar exhibit

2006-09-04T00:36:00.000+08:00

Woot back again..well been to payar lebar air base today for the exhibition.Great aircraft and heli exhibits .Real massive though.Not to mention,it was crowded to the brim assuming today was the last day of the exhibit.(I guess).Food was reasonably cheap .Bought 3 books for 5ocents each.If you think that is cheap..imagine this .(A fully-clad Ns man in full uniform raising cardboard written in bold-selling ten books for 1 dollar !CRAP Too bad those were children books .Still it caused a frenzy duh..
Air show was great .. a couple of F-16s doing great stints like backflips and all...followed by the expected gasops of the crowd.My favourite was two chinook helis hovering infront of us ...real cool.I did know that this helicopters can actually excecute a vertical pose .INCREDIBLE.Pictures coming up in the next entry !

2006-09-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

Yea yea...the exams are over.Well, seems that I will not do well in two subjects ..man they are so freaking boring and their leatures are scarely comprehensible to me..Best of all no help.Reality check.Plus a little last minute mugging,as per usual.Waiting for my warcraft 3 yes from my friend and I can hardly wait :p
Feeling very bored..installed up to four game demos on my lap and started playin till now that I have grown bored of them and deleted them ..yes back to square again so I thought blogging would't hurt.I recently confirmed that lack of sleep does make me d really stupid and unexpected things during exams .(my ckt paper was a victim) .My mum is nagging me to sleep early ...bla bla I am listening but not budging.
Anyone heard about crop circles ???I have developed interest them recently.Spent some time reading about them online and in the library.Amazing so aliens do really exist or martians or venusians as you call them.
Anyway I really need to excercise soon ....I have not played soccer for sometime....after leg injuries ,exams and stuff.Maybe jogging ? Yep.Recently got addicted to metacafe ....metacafe rocks man I think they even beat youtube.Their videos are funnier and more interesting.Yea downloaded lot of their videos.Actually I am a download junkie ..I like downloading stuff ranging from big game demos to security programs ,desktop enhancements ,videos and a occasional hack(gee) and then compare which is the best for my computer.I enjoy doing this stuffs ,its the only thing that I do besides playing game all day.Btw utada hikaru rocks.I stumbled across one of her live videos on youtube and I am hooked .I watch the video each time I log in and out.Great voice ,great looks and charm with the audience.

2006-08-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

Well tomorow's my circuit analysis paper.Check out this guy..he been lots of countries .Just wish I could travel like him (without robbing the bank of course lol)Been to my relative house today.Never said a word.I am not anti-social..okay sub-consciously maybe yes.But they are just so different.Damm

2006-08-27T00:26:00.000+08:00

Feeling stressed out or depressed latetly ? Watch this....you will feel better :p(plus u need to shift for a better view because I gota small space sry)

2006-08-25T22:06:00.000+08:00

Ahha e-maths over ...2hours of brain torture yess...Paper was okay ..except for a expected super tough not-in-syallbus question on the last page.

2006-08-24T20:53:00.000+08:00

Well..time sure flies ...tml will be my e-maths exam paper den mon circuit analysis.Next day HAP and then digital fundamentals bla bla..and then FREEDOM.

2006-08-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

Start of EPL. Yes..and highest in premier league for gameweek 1 :)

2006-08-19T14:45:00.000+08:00

Why does the government constantly preach on respecting all races and RELIGONS and also makes efforts to preserve sites of historical and religious value when it is going demolish a sacred place like a TEMPLE and a bodhi tree for developement.Isn't that contradictive of what they have been doing and saying? Yes its old but this places are never meant to be meant to be demolished at all in the first place.Shocking.

2006-08-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

Phew I am back after what it seems like ages.A lot of things been happening.Firstly I will like to thank ain for helping me change to this blogskin which I have choosen.U have good blog skills ain don't be humble !!LOL What about me ?...oh...I don't anything and I don't bother.Well ,exam are around the corner around one and a half weeks time.Got to mug.My right knee have not heal .It will take more than a month.Man this is the first time I got injured ever since I learnt to play soccer and it got o be THAT long !My two lab tests are over haha...I 'em relieved.I don't fancy lab tests.Meanwhile I just received my phone ..it was a staggering $44.50..I was like wtf when my father showed it to me.Frustrated I pushed my father to check as he went through my previous bills.Then I checked my own phone records.All records are stacked so you don't know how much to and not to spend for a month so as to not overuse.Smart people.Then my fathered called the 24hours customer service to ask.Then..the true was out.The lady that tended to us kept telling us that the plan included a 150min free outgoing and 1k free sms.Yes you need to tell me its written all over the place on m1 promotional boards.BUT DID ANYONE TELL US THAT 150MIN FREE IS FOR PEAK HOURS ONLY WHICH IS 9AM-9PM ONLY ...THE NON-PEAK IS LIKE ONLY 75MIN FREE WHICH MEANS ANY CALL AFTER 9 IS LIKE DOUBLE...COME ON M1 YOU MEAN TO SAY EVERYINE SLEEPS AT 9 OR WHAT AND WHY IT IS ONLY AFTER NINE WHEN THE CITY IS MORE ALIVE AND MORE PEOPLE USE THEIR PHONES.TO THINK THAT I PURPOSELY USE MY PHONE MORE AT NIGHT SO THAT I CAN SAVE ON THE HOUSE PHONE.

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Then came this msg from m1:

Pls rate the service you just received frm them1 officer,1-Very Good,2-Good,3-Avg,4-Below,5-Poor

My reply:F*** off you M1 are cheaters

Their reply : Sorry ,this is an invalid rating .Pls use only numeric digit from 1-5
1-Very good,2-Good,3-Avg,4-Below,5-poor

X( I give up.(Smart people)

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I found out that I could not connect to youtube suddenly.Maybe there too many peple watching videos whatever....plz don't let it be my firewall.

2006-08-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

Man I am supposed to asleep now.My body is so weak and my breathing is heavy.By the way ...I learnt how to encrypt and decrypt using a software.Cool.Knowlege is always in abundance x)

2006-08-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

Hi I em back ! Well time really flies..the examinations are approaching again.Got to buck up my digifunds.The lecturer is really good and helpful...is just that the subject isn't to me.Actually...all my lecturers and care person are good.Every single one of them.I feel blessed.Well with the exams approaching and leg still not fully healed it seems that it will be along time before I play soccer again x( .Next,during the september holidays I probably be going to australia on a school trip ..yea..
Recently borrowed a book from tp school library ...called a life in balance by Dr Kathleen Hall....very inspiring and enlightening .Too bad its just two weeks.National day is coming soon ...No diff

2006-07-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

Geez I am back.Finally is the long awaited weekends.Nothing much ...more and more quizs are coming to prepare for the exams.Stress man.Injured myleg during street ...doc says must rest for a least a month....

2006-07-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

Finally..its friday again .Got captainball competition today oraganised by the bioengenes club for only us bie.Well firstly I got to say i can't play because I injured by leg during street as someone crashed onto my leg and somehow shifted the bone.Our class only versus the year twos and threes.There isn't fair.Naturally we lost and some we got thrashed.The seniors were very violent yes even the girls....it was scary.Yea but skilled as well.Well most of ask are not happy and protested to the so called ref(a girl in back glasses who think she got third eye).We as the bystandes shouted REFREE KAYU n KELONG LOL.We were laughing like mad...we obviously pissed them off.After we got elimated..other year one s like us got to play the seniors.They agreed that the seniors were very violent ..and they lost.One year 1 even got so angry to the point that she marched out of the match and smashed the wall with her fist !!!!!! We all gaped.All in all it was just sad that I did'tn play.x(

2006-07-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

Apparently someone finally critise my blog...those who judge without thinking ...its long since I met a fool like that.What an honour.

2006-07-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

Actually I wanted to do a poem but I promised a friend to do it about her so there..

2006-07-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

Back after at least 3 weeks of exile and laziness.I am so lazy that I can't be bothered to update....oh man.Okay now the update.Last last week went to play soccer at town park..no fun at all.Just some tiring excercise..sort of regreted going.. Today went to white sand to study and then play soccer with some friends.Recently went to the national youth forum with my gcc friends.Its was held in SMU.Not bad....got to hear about some serious talks about singapore...problems that are currently faced.A minister was the guest there but I forgot his name(opps omg).Took a group picture with him and elim chew in case you are unaware...the founder and mentor of your all-to-familiar 77th street.Yes..all branded stuff.Tomorow school starts school agan..sian...lab in first all the queue.Hate lab.2 hours of solid mental torture.Okay enough for now.

2006-07-09T11:36:00.000+08:00

Some people are born losers ....some are better at least ..cowards....ok both.

2006-07-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

Oh shitttt .... leg cramp....waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

2006-07-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

Feel like learning martial arts lol..

2006-07-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

Bleak did the very future holds
Confused I thought I had mellowed
Many times my nerves were frayed
I prayed to keep the pest at bay
But always in vain
I thought I was insane
My mind's eye was always a storm
With thoughts running amok
I was wondering thinking figuring evaluating
For the best way to live a life
However always failure greets
Whenever I thought I had succeed
I look upon people around me
Did they ever did what I did ?
If no then why are their lives so much better and happier ?
What's wrong
Were they blessed or were they just lucky in life
Or did they choose to ignore the uncertainties
And live their life
Some people have chose to ignore
And paid dearly and maybe more
While some stride through with ease
Many I have seen
Have made it without effort
And with a price to pay
Their values ignored
Their characters destroyed
Still they succeded
And people preach that the world is fair
That a God presides and ensures that
Too hell with that
Reality is far from that
Sometimes my feel my principles and thoughts collide
Neither did me help and I was falling apart
I was helpless as I watched my life passing
Without purpose and value
It could just end like that
I am depressed
No one cares to hear
No one understands
If this is life then I condemm it
For eight years
Eight long years
I never experienced true joy
My zeal for life is longforgotten
Soon the end would draw near
I would leave those that are dear
I would be at the crossroads of my life
In my next life I would ask
The very force responsible for my being
Why make me go through all this
Nothing went right
I was cursed from the start
It is time I stood up
Against the leech sucking up my life
It was invisible and deadly
No one could see what I experienced
I was at the mercy of it
Alone
It is time I had my break
My patience is dry
I had enough
I need some answers

2006-07-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

I have not updated up blog for a rather long time now.Man my results are not good enough ..gotta buck up.Everything going well in school ...friends and cca ..so far so good.Only been bad thing is that I am still lazy.Watched superman returns lately.Great sights and sounds as well as plot.A success !Weaking weak and heaty lately.Not enough sleep and too much macdonalds are the main culprits.Got to control my budget spending too.Having some serious doubts my course.Boring.I don't one to face medical equipments and wires in future all the time.If i could i might go mass com.Too late.Crap.Hope to move on to a field of writing and researching in university.Maybe I escape those wires.I am a human and I can't face machines the time.I need something ever-changing and fresh..something I will face everyday with renewed zeal...something I look forward to everyday.Definetly not those dreadful medical machines .

2006-07-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

I need an injury to happen for me to play ...what is this man

2006-06-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

I will go to where I am needed and respected and treated as a equal.

2006-06-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

School starting next week man.At least its not as bad as starting school when in secondary school.More relaxed .Looking forward to all subjects results except for all lab results.Okie...off to watch dvd now. x)

2006-06-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

Germany can beat england or maybe brazil...because they are smart lot.Even without the degree of skill to beat brazil..they have supreb passing and cooperation.Best I have seen so far.Plus..the coach don't blow up...he keeps calm..trust his players in even when critical blunders are made.When a nice cross or volley is made..the players makes a good gesture to their own comrades ...even if it isn't really excellent but still satisfactory enough for a goal.That..isn't for show..that is a an important key to winning.Motivation that is .....it keeps all the players happy and confident....A demoralised team is doomed...always.Plus..reference to their history has shown that they always have a special tactic or two when dealing with challenges..in other words a strong team.Germany deserves the world cup...they cool,calm ,collected but yet eager and determined to win through skill,touch and of course tactics.To hell with hitler.

2006-06-18T18:23:00.000+08:00

Barbecue at bishan gardens..while waiting
we decided to play some poker cards.

The towering condominium held us spellbound.

Not to mention the fountains

and the architecture.

Food was prepared to be barbecued..
.fishballs..wings..sausages and stuff.

And we are off !! I can't take
well among the smoke !

A t last..makan :p

Basketball ater the feast. Man I suck at it.

Will like to thank Mr Alvin for making this barbecue possible ..for lending us his great condo..all second and third year gcc members for organising the outing.
Finally..to the security guard who scolded us to keep quiet...residents are complaining ..we are making a din muaha.

2006-06-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

I didn't know I could play squash.Plus...today's table tennis training was crazy. x )

2006-06-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

I didn't know I could play squash.(thanks to badmintion).Plus..todays table tennis training was crazy x)

2006-06-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

I am writing now because I am really bored.Games are are making me bored too..so I am blogging now.Ok yea..yea...I am blogging..Oh yea I just did it.

2006-06-13T00:33:00.000+08:00

All my friends are watching world cup except me ..I don't have a world cup channel at home :( So...I am playing the world cup game at miniclip.com !!!:)

GOAL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WTF !!!!??? Brazil lost to COSTA RICA 1-4 WHAT HAPPENED lol....I did.

2006-06-11T01:29:00.000+08:00

What am I doing at this hour ???!!! Downloading advent children :p

2006-06-10T12:31:00.000+08:00

I am not going to say much...just love the previous entry too much.

2006-06-10T00:47:00.000+08:00

Today I went to watch a match and jalan besar stadium with my friend between albirex niigata and geylang fc.However instead of filling in about the events ,I am going to waste precious space to talk about something.

This people think I am a pushover.
They critise me without looking at themselves.
They did not look carefully enough or rather do not possess that 'vision' or rather are simply blind.
They do not have a mind of their own and allow others to influence and change them....for the worse.
When I have followed the rules set ...they disobeyed them the rest feighed ignorance.
When I have broken a rule...the mass act as if I killed someone.
When someone makes a mistake ..it is taken to be an unexpected occurence.
When I make a mistake it is made moutain out of a molehill
When all is lost the blame is on everyone else accept the oneself.
When a mistake is made instead of savaging...a scolding is made or rather the refusal to allow atonement and condemmation is made.
Surprisingly ,the story goes different for the rest !
All is well.
When the rule is set by the leader everyone preaches it.
When the situation calls for a change yet that was unfair.the leader loses his principals and change the rules .
What I had work so hard to acheive was gone in a breeze.
Behind the scenes were cheap and lowdown attacks .
Colloborations were made ..mockeries were done....critism was there too.
The internet was not spared either.
Everyone has a limit even the most tolerant.
Just because I keep quiet does not mean do not know ,do not care and took it but forgot it.
The rule of nature has that if you make people's life better you are changing yours fotr the better too.
If you make life miserable for others ..same goes for yours.
Well of course all seem well for now ..yr not suffering now..other s are ..yr enjoyng yrself !!
But wait till the rule turns back to hit you and it be till late for anything to save you..or maybe it has already happened and you haven't noticed.
Then good luck and made god bless you or maybe you don't have one or he has gave up hope on you.
The world is suffering enough..plz do a sacred ..holy favour by removing yourself.
You never know...the world might make it.
You think this is funny
This rhythmic poem-like essay.
But think again before you smile again on whats waiting for you.
You never know..the predictions about you could be true...perharps
On the path you are travelling now..is it a hoax?
Will the final destination be fatal? or paradise?
So much I could do
Is to tell you all isn't well.

2006-06-09T14:35:00.000+08:00

Its the HOLIdaYs !!!!!! YeAAAHHHHhhhh.......x )

2006-06-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

At last tomorow is my last paper.HAP Yea

2006-06-07T12:33:00.000+08:00

Linkin Park rocks man....and still rocking.Never fails to impress..

2006-06-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

Oh baby !!!....

2006-06-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

Back at last from a week of exile.Parents bought me a new phone....sony ericsson 750i...yea man great phone .Will get me new boots.. my old its in a bad conditon...its so tight and old and its lost its grip.Of course mostly its me..my skills still not good enough..I need to train harder.skill counts more.The term tests are so close that I can't breathe....I NEED PANTS MAN

2006-05-31T20:37:00.000+08:00

Okie..lab tests are over.Now a week of term tests .

2006-05-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

My mother is a world-class cook :P

2006-05-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

Ha.Tomorow I got a ckt lab test and a digi fund test the following day.Cheez at least I don't get so stressed when i secondary school.Gotta go back to prcs to get back my officail 'o'level cert this friday.Next week will be a hardcore load of term test one after another....FIVE..m a n.X/.After that ...two weeks of sheer bissful joy !!!!( i swear it feels like a day away )

2006-05-27T01:08:00.000+08:00

Today's ccn day was fun though we were off to rough start.Firstly,we opened our stall late.Then,to our horror we founded out we were not given any table......the bie club was doing crap and we had to call them out and carry some (school) tables to use.Next some irresponsible crap lost half our tupperware...we later found it.There was a change in events later as our business became very good selling lots of drinks and chips(NACHOS)hahaha..I was the iceman(in charge of filling cups with ice).Later when to centre point with parents :p

2006-05-23T01:19:00.000+08:00

Yawnnnnn...I am so sleepy.I em gonna die tomorow.Besides I am going to join the track n field team...even if I enter I might play reserve.To hell with that.Joel wantts to lend me his new track shoes ...cool.But I declined.I don't like to borrow stuff from people....unless its really urgent.Especially if its expensive.I don't like heavy responsiblities...akes me feel stressed.i am stressed enough already.If I like the cca enough..I might get one for myself....without stripes (LOL) WaHAHAHAHA